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[Friday March 2nd, 2007 | 9:30pm] new livejournal because i need to start over. invectiva_left add it if you want. i'll only add people who add me first i guess, since its not friends only or anything. 1 | comment

[Friday March 2nd, 2007 | 4:46pm] i am so tired lately. tuesday we start new classes, i signed up for a religion class and that should be interesting. 8 | comment

[Wednesday February 28th, 2007 | 3:47pm] well last night was a lot of fun. i'm too tired to explain it, maybe later. someone stepped on my laptop last night and the monitor is completely crushed. you cant see anything on it anymore the keyboards fucked too so even if i got a new monitor its not like it'd really make a difference. therefore i wont be online a lot anymore. if you need me call my cell 1 503 334 5725 comment

[Monday February 26th, 2007 | 9:32pm] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DUMBBITCH AHSHFDSDFJDSAKJGFA;LSJAFD;LK JD;LFJDSKL;AFJDS ;LFJAJFDSA L;CHOKEE ON A DICK FUCKFUCKFUCK DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IN A FOREST FIREEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 3 | comment

[Saturday February 24th, 2007 | 7:52pm] AHH I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY ughghghghhghgafsfkfjsda; fuckign i need a therapist or something because my moms stupid little fucking mind games are just like NO FUCK YOU BITCH god damnit im going to fucking kill something i need to ventventvent but nobody wants to hear this shit all they do is say like awh taht sucks YEAH THAST FUCKING ESTABLISHED I REALIZE THAT THANKS. god fuck fuck fuck i want to just slap my mother and yell in her face and make her realize what shes doing is so fucked up and ridiculous and immiture and i want to break shit and cry and yell and hit things and just ruin her entire fucking life so she fucking knows how it feels god fucking DAMNIT AND WHY THE FUCK DO MY PLANS ALWAYS FUCKING FALL THROUGH ALWAYS EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WEEKEND PEOPLE ARE LIKE "hey lets hangout" THEN SUR FUCKING PRISE THEY JUST CANT I SWEAR IM GUNNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF OR SOMETHING UGHHHHHHHHHHH. 5 | comment

[Friday February 23rd, 2007 | 5:11pm] michael and i are going to go on an adventure to the underground train tracks by pier park soon. i'm anxious. i've been thinking about time lately and how you should really just do whatever you want because in the end when its time for you to die, you're gunna die, so live how you want to. and because when its over all it is is dirt and sand and then its nothing so it really doesnt matter. be as happy as you can be because after all this time goes by its all nothing. if that makes sense. i think i've convinced my parents to let me go to minnesota for a week of spring break finally. i'm not going to tell sam i'm coming though, i'm just gunna kinda show up and be like SUP haha. i'm so exicted for the rest of my life. comment

[Thursday February 22nd, 2007 | 12:19am] :[ SockBusters: someone showed me a picture of you and asked if it was you and i was like "yes. she is sexy." and they're like "OMG EWWW I HATE YOU!" 2 | comment

[Wednesday February 21st, 2007 | 7:22pm] so i pretty much hate my school after recent events and only respect maybe two people there (even then i cant trust them) so i've been talking to my dad about internet schooling and hes all for it which is good because i think thats what i want i dont know how my mom would feel about it but she'll probably say no just because she fucking hates me. it seems easy and i like the idea of sitting around all nasty and frumphy (yeah idk imade that up haha) and comfy at home while i do my schoolwork its like a sick day everyday but with homework not that bad. the only thing is i'd be living with my dad if i did it. which means never seeing david anthony jean or anyone really except the weekends.. today i was sitting in my science class trying to ignore brian talk about bee's so i looked out the window and was pleasantly surprised to see the sun. i want summer to come around so bad because i know this summer is going to be good. except david and anthony have fucking JOBS! yeaaaah so maybe not but whatever i like the idea of wearing basketball shorts allthe time and getting drunk with my friends late at night in the middle of wherever and adventures and not being stressed. yeah anthony got that job at safeway or wahtever and i was like "awh yay i'm happy for you" when in reality i'm not and i actually didn't want him to get that job out of selfishness i suppose but either way, at least he's got something to occupy his time and make some money. i don't care much for kyle anymore. probably just because hes not interested so its like eh whatever. i dont want to like make him like me haha. i want to lose some weight! someone take yoga with meee :] comment

surprises [Tuesday February 20th, 2007 | 12:55am] [ music | say anything ] today i was talking to matt's friend michael. he was telling me about important things in his life, when he finished he asked what were some important things in my life. i told him that not a lot was important, i just enjoyed being happy and i force people to hug me. he said "i'd hug you willingly, but only between the hours of 4am and 6am." i said that worked and that someday we'd hug at a time between 4am and 6am. later on in the conversation he said "i want to show you something" but he never did, so i didnt take it into consideration as we continued our talking. then after a while he said "oh shit i forgot what i was going to show you" he showed me this picture and said "someday we will go there between 4am and 6am." i like this a lot. this as in his kindness and such. my mom also bought roses today to put in the living room and i asked if i could have some and she kept saying no but then she gave me half of them. life. 3 | comment

[Monday February 19th, 2007 | 12:25am] i love my good friends. david, emi, anthony and hippie are all hanging out tonight and theyre pretty drunk. david's called me a few times since he's been intoxicated haha. the first time he called he just wanted to know who sings Gettin Some Head haha. He ended that phone call by saying "anthony says he loves you emi says she loves you hippie says he loves you and i love you" which was the first time david has ever said that to me haha. the second time david called he was like "KATE WELSH GUESS WHAT!" and i was like "WHAT" and he said "I'M IN A TREE!!!!!" that made me so happy. then i talked to anthony for about 30 seconds. the third time david called after i said "hello" he just started singing "this is why i'm hot hot this is why im hot hot this is why this is why this is why im hot" but rather slow and in his funny, awkward voice. haha. then he gave the phone to anthony and anthony was like "we're gunna talk seriously so i'm going to walk over to this bench". we didnt say a lot but it was very nice just to hear him. he said he misses me a lot and that he loves me and he was saying that when his mom told him he couldnt come over he went outside and punched the ground and his knuckles started to bleed and that he started yelling curses i guess. he said that david, emi and i are his best friends and that he wouldnt be able to live without us. he wished i was there, even if i wasnt drinking, just because he misses me so much. this made me very happy to know that someone cares this much, especially this someone in particular as i've been worried about our friendship lately. comment

[Sunday February 18th, 2007 | 7:39pm] [ music | ludacris ] my day didn't go as planned and i was upset. kyle did although drop by to get his coat and we talked for a few minutes and we hugged and blahblah. i like kyle and rather than looking on the he-doesnt-feel-the-same side i've decided to view it from a more positive perspective. although i still believe that he doesnt feel the same i'm going to enjoy the dumb giddy feeling i get around him, you know what i'm talking about. he promised we'd hang out soon and i don't think he will keep that promise but then again i could be underestimating him. since my plans fell through today and everyone except justin was out of the house i had plenty of thinking time. i finally found something that has provoked me to be more positive twoards things and its a nice feeling. i just wish i werent so boring. i also thought of who my real friends are today, and then the people who are just there. i have about 6 real friends i think. maybe 7. you don't need to know who they are =) i'd like to get to know everyone on my friends list. tell me about yourself. 3 | comment

[Sunday February 18th, 2007 | 3:26pm] DAMNIT kyle really would get grounded today =( ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so boreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed what the fuck i want to hangout with kyle DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT comment

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[Saturday February 17th, 2007 | 11:19pm] me: so i brought marriah flowers today and she was like "louie isnt even this sweet! but my lesbian lover issssss" anthony: hahha, so shes like, single now me: HAHA ARE YOU SERIOUS anthony: hahaha justkidding. me: yaeh doesnt matter anyway, shes got the hots for me anthony: so does kyle apparently, HAHAHAHAHHAAHHA wtf don't call me drunk, tell me you're sober, brag about the great time you're having, complain about never seeing me then laugh about me liking kyle fjasdk i dont want to hang out with kyle tomorrow i hate everyone die. 1 | comment

[Saturday February 17th, 2007 | 8:15pm] i brought marriah flowers today because she's sick and sad. i think she liked them. kyle and i are hanging out tomorrow. i'm excited and sad at the same time. i don't think he likes me like i like him and i don't want to get my hopes up about anything because i know its not going to turn out for the best. i kinda just want to tell him i can't hang out or something. i don't know. my friendship bracelete with anthony and david keeps breaking. fdjaksl shit. ugh. =( 1 | comment

[Friday February 16th, 2007 | 5:18pm] i'm sorry miss jackson OOOOOO i am fo REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL ohmygoshihavesuchabigcrushonkylefjdkslaa. we're hanging out sunday : DD oh gosh i'm excited hahah. lalalalala. 1 | comment

[Tuesday February 13th, 2007 | 10:05pm] kyle asked me to be his valentine haha : DD yayyayayay 1 | comment

[Monday February 12th, 2007 | 12:44am] tonight was good oh my gosh i have such a big crush on kyle hahahahh it was so cute haha the first thing he did when he saw me was he came up from behind me and hugged me and was like "have i told you that i love you today? cuz i do" it was so cute hahaha ( licky ) 5 | comment

[Saturday February 10th, 2007 | 4:57pm] i have a lot on my mind and noone to express it to. its all nonsense anyway. i decided to start gaguing my ears last night but i had to repierce them because i never really wear earings, so i did that with safety pins. then i put two safety pins in each ear, and hung little clasps from them so they'd stretch. when i woke up my left ear hurt really bad so i took everything out of it and looked fine on the front side, just a little bleeding. then i looked on the back side and my skin was green and fucked up and pussing and swollen and i was basically like "oh shit i better not have fucking gangrene". i decided i'd ask jean about it when i saw her today because she's a nurse but then i was like thats gunna be a while and i don't want this to get anyworse so i cleaned it out thinking maybe it was fuz or something but nope my skin was green and i didnt know what to do so i cut the green skin out and it started pussing/bleeding a lot more which actually relieved me because all that shit was getting out of me. then i remembered that kalynn's mom has a medical degree so i asked her what was up and she said if it as gangrene it'd be black and smell reallllly horrible, then she asked for a picture so she could determine it (we were talking over aim) so i went and took a picture then sent it to her and she just said it was a bad infection and to soak it in a shallow cup of peroxide for about 30 seconds so i did that then put some band-aid ointment shit on it it doesnt hurt anymore but its all fucked up still any ways theres the story of how i tried and failed to gague my ears. woohoo. and i totally have a life because i was watching nbc today and there was some kids show on and it was these like 4 elephants with ridiculous names like pom, isabelle, papadom or something and idk but uh they thought there was a monster in their house but it was really some rhino stealing a postage stamp from them? i don't know. then i watched another kid show called dragon and it was a claymation and the dragon threw himself a surprise birthday party but didnt get emo about it when he forgot to invite his friends so that made me happy that at least someone can enjoy the company of just themselves, be it in a cartoon or not because even on tv they get sad when theyre alone now. i need nail clippers. 6 | comment

[Friday February 9th, 2007 | 3:37pm] anthony came over yesterday which was nice because i've been really worried about him he's moving to tualitan and thats forever away so i'm only going to be seeing him like once every two weeks or something ridiculous =( he said he wants to spend his birthday at my house though and that makes me happy =) jeans staying at my house saturday and sunday night. saturday we're going to some show she wants to see then sunday loch is playing i get to see kyle which makes me happy. i love kyle =) and andrew! oh yay this is going to be a good weekend =) except i'm sick but i mean when am i NOT 3 | comment

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